Female Led Relationships: Femdom Lifestyle
This is something a submissive an wrote many years ago about being the bottom have of a F/m D/s relationship. My quoting his words isn’t an endorsement. But it may give you a basis for evolving your sense of what being submissive means to you:
i’m only 7 months down the road of submission (being formerly vanilla of sorts, and Dom on occassion) but i have noticed a number of attractions and unforseen bonuses to this life. If it doesn’t tax, i will be so bold as to share :
– i first entered service to try and find the trigger for why being trapped/helpless would invoke such irrational panic (came close to blacking out during initial training – and at that, not in a pain-based scenario). Discovered that it came down to loss of identity. IRL, faced by the blank face of impersonal paperwork/protocol (where that killer Sargent charm couldn’t come into play) i would sieze up. From D/s have learned a world of passive skills and survival when my “uniqueness” was not valued.
– on the selfish end – to be cherished, and of use. To be be able to Trust someone with my weakness, and to be allowed to be weak. – on the unselfish end – to allow someone i love to feel strong. To give them a chance to open their heart with confidence that they won’t be mocked or feel they’re on the short end of the stick. To serve them, and make them the center of the universe. To allow them to indulge their fantasies without fear of condemnation or reprisal.
– MUCH more “in touch with my emotions” (gawd – as a native Californian, this is a horrible phrase to utter, despite, and because of the stereotype). i’ve cried more in the last 7 months than i have in …saaaayy…30 years (sure i cried plenty under the age of 6, but much of that is cloudy). And NOT from the physical pain, but from the exposure, the opening. Becoming that proto-6-year-old. Becoming dependent. Opening myself to “Need” (because an unspoken need, need never be disappointed).
– along the lines of passive skills, have learned that it doesn’t take both barrells of personality to get the job done – can be just as effective with a dab. Case in point: work is VERY territorial when it comes to suggestions between departments – animators can make animation suggestions, compers can talk about compositing, etc etc. During a storyboarding meeting, i saw a weak spot in the story, a production issue. Just shy of saying “Mistress, if it pleases”, i made a few suggestions that might improve it. Months earlier, i would have been given the death stare, stoney silence, and a quiet flaying afterwards; this time, there was a pause and a “Good idea Sarge – i’ll bring it up to production”.
– did i mention the hot sex? Hot sex.
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